Monday, October 1, 2012
One foot in front of the other.
When you're a writer there are so many pulls on your time and energy. Being an artistic endeavor, often people in your family or work sphere just don't get why you do it. Aaand life doesn't accommodate a writer's schedule. Oh, you've noticed.
When I look back and the last two years I can identify a couple major road blocks or turning points in the way I planned to handle my writing career. (Bear with me - there's a point to this.)
March 2011 I put off submitting my requested wip after a friend and multi published author offered to critique it first. I figured what's a month? So I shot it off to her and an opportunity buy a small business arose so I leapt on it.
April 2011 I still hadn't heard from the author, the new business was doing well but the river was rising. At the end of the month we decided to move our entire household and close one business and move it across the river, after which we lived like campers for three months. Needless to say, writing was far from my mind and time and space didn't help.
In July we moved back and at the end of my season, I decided since I hadn't heard from my friend the author and had lost the window of opportunity for submission, I would self publish. I had three months last winter '11 to get it polished, formatted and published on Amazon. This was not my first choice. But I would not change anything about the process. There were so many 'rites of passage' that I would not have traveled had I not gone this route.
But after January 2012 publication and a month of promo and preparation, it was time to open the business again. This time I had to give it my full attention, working seven days a week. It was four and a half months before I had a day off.
By the time September 15th came and the close of season, I was bushed and totally discouraged. Just like last summer after the Thank-God-it-didn't-flood Flood, I wondered if I would write again.
But I'm starting to feel the story pulling me back like a Star Trek tractor beam. The only thing is the enthusiasm is also accompanied by fear, doubt, and issues of a short time frame to meet my goal of December release with the need to take a couple trips and enjoy my life a bit over the winter months.
I keep remembering something I saw during the Olympics - a Tom Brokaw biographical segment on Churchill. Did you see it?
When Britain was the last country to stand against Hitler and her was threatening from every side from Russia to Africa to France, gradually encroaching on Britain's border and even the US was saying, "Aah, that's not our fight..." Churchill said this to the people of Britain.
"We shall go on to the end. We shall fight in France, we shall fight on the seas and oceans, we shall fight with growing confidence and growing strength in the air, we shall defend our island, whatever the cost may be. We shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender, and if, which I do not for a moment believe, this island or a large part of it were subjugated and starving, then our Empire beyond the seas, armed and guarded by the British Fleet, would carry on the struggle, until, in God's good time, the New World, with all its power and might, steps forth to the rescue and the liberation of the old.
And the people responded. They did fight in the streets. They fought and fought and just kept holding on (for TWO YEARS) until help finally came. We cannot imagine.
Whether it's people fighting for freedom or those we've seen recently who are joyfully overcoming physical or financial obstacles, it boils down to holding on and taking baby steps until you get back in the game.
I may not make that goal I've set. I'll try. But if it takes longer to produce a better story and to enjoy life a little as well, then so be it. Because the story is in me, just like the music is in me. And if I don't write, and I don't sing, I'm not complete.
Here's another quote.
That's kind of comforting don't you think? This week it's BICHOK for me, even if it starts small.
What kind of interruptions to your writing have you had to face and how did you overcome it?
For one commenter I'll give away a copy of a friend's book, Fire in my Blood, an erotic novella by Marcella Rose.